Wrecked Before My Eyes

Posted by Savannah Dougherty on

             

 

“Can anything good come from suffering? Is it possible that our hardships and heartbreaks can create something worth keeping? If so, what is it?”

 

This is something that was sent to me from a sweet friend in the midst of complete chaos. My life was quickly dwindling before my eyes. Everything around me seemed to be going wrong…and then this message.

 

One minute your life feels perfect and the next you are down on your knees asking God “how” & “why me?” “God how can anything good come out of this situation?”

 

My life has been wrecked in so many ways, by so many situations. I’ve decided to share one that is dearest to my heart.

 

Our precious baby would have been almost seven weeks when we found out on September 20th that I had miscarried. After spending an entire day in the ER with little to no answers, waiting days to get another blood test, and then again waiting for blood results; my life has been nothing but a waiting and unsure season. A season also filled with so many emotions.

 

              

 

Something that I will hold onto is what the Doctor told me, “No matter what happens to this baby, know that it wasn’t your fault. Your baby can survive when you aren’t eating. It will literally take everything out of you. No matter the stress you have been under, if this baby doesn’t survive, it is because it wasn’t growing and doing what it is supposed to be doing properly.”

 

I needed to know it wasn’t my fault.

 

Why is it that bad things happen to good people? What is it that is worth keeping and what good can come from all of this? There has to be something…right?! I know for myself, through every bad season I have walked through I find a strength that I never knew I had. I find a love for God that is so much deeper. The “other side” doesn’t look bright from far away, but once you get there… OH MY!

 

My God is not a God of anger or hate. He has a plan and knows exactly what is going to happen and when it is going to take place.

 

Our baby had a purpose here on earth, even if it was for a short period of time. We may never understand why this happens, but I know that my God does.

 

“Our trials will ultimately lead us towards a magnificent end, if we keep pursuing and trusting God. We’re not promised it will all happen here on earth, but what awaits us for eternity is both glorious and absolutely worth persevering for.”

 

“We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that the suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” (Romans 5:3-5)

 

“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion: therefore I will wait for him.’ The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.” (Lamentations 3:21-26)

 

We can deeply grieve and still be fully confident in the hope of God.

 

 

Prayer:

 

Lord, thank you for not leaving me where I am when I am down. Thank you for picking me up and giving me a hope and strength to keep moving forward. Allow my sufferings to become the very thing that you use to bring YOU glory. I trust that everything you’ve allowed in my life will also serve a purpose for my good and your glory. I trust that you are here with me in my pain and suffering. I know that your grace and love will see me through to the other side of my present struggles. In Jesus’ name, AMEN.

 


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